It has been way too long, my friends.

This time my absence has mostly been a sign of positive growth. I’ve been busy with work, music, and my boyfriend.

For those of you who have been keeping up with my blog, there is a lot I could update you on, but for now I’d rather just write about where I’m at… right now.

I’m back in upper Michigan with my sister and brother.

The last time I was here was pretty much right before I hit rock bottom. It was when I first began trying to pull myself out of the hole I had fallen (and also jumped) into. And although last time I was here I felt joy for the first time in quite a while, I also realized that getting better was going to be a fight.

That was in the Porcupine Mountains. Right now the part of the UP I’m in is a couple hours east of that. I came here a lot during the winter months with my friend. In a way… it’s really painful to be here. And frustrating. It’s like no matter where I go these memories haunt me. They claw at me, tearing away pieces of the stability I have tried to rebuild.

I guess I have a lot of thoughts right now- too many to really focus on to write a good post. I hope you all are well… and I will most surely post again before leaving here.

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